Gospel artist Mash Mwana bared the painful details of his troubled past, recounting a time when his own mother contemplated poisoning him to spare the family from the disgrace of his criminal activities.
Speaking on NTV’s Crossover, Mash Mwana unfolded his transformation journey, unveiling a tumultuous chapter that saw him drift away from his family’s strong ties to the church.
As the son of a pastor, he acknowledged the stark deviation from the righteous path, delving into the spiritual turmoil and criminal endeavours that marked his darkest days.
“Realise that the devil comes to destroy,” said Mash Mwana, vividly describing the inner struggles and the weight of spiritual turmoil during this challenging period.
The artist confessed to feeling a looming sense of doom, even dreaming of death and grappling with the spirit of death within him.
In a desperate plea for intervention, Mash Mwana turned to prayer, expressing his fears to God. “I even went to church and prayed and told God, I know I will die, but not now. I begged God to make me mad instead so that people just see me wandering around, but I’m not ready to die. Do what you can for me,” he confessed.
The turning point in Mash Mwana’s life came during his time at Bible school, where he encountered a transformative experience with God.
“And that is when I met God. God can transform because I was ready. God can use and, from that point, bring testimony to my life, to my parents,” he shared.
However, amidst the revelation of his redemption, Mash Mwana disclosed a chilling truth about his past.
His mother, driven by the fear of societal shame and embarrassment, had contemplated poisoning him due to his destructive lifestyle.
“The other day, my mum told me, ‘I wanted to kill you. I wanted to poison you so you can die and save the family from seeing you lying dead on the streets.’ She did not want that embarrassment and death,” he disclosed.
The artist explained his mother’s motivation, shedding light on the societal stigma associated with being the son of a pastor involved in criminal activities.
“She did not want people to say, ‘See, the pastor’s son is being killed for being a criminal,’ and all that disgrace. She wanted to avoid it by poisoning me,” he added.
Reflecting on his transformative journey, Mash Mwana said, “I can see God has done something in your life. Without God, you cannot do it. You need God to change you. You need to go to the Holy Spirit, let something spiritual happen,” he concluded.
“Personally, you cannot give what you don’t have, so, number one, it’s allowing God to work on you. You cannot work on yourself before God works on you. Sometimes when you want to work on yourself, you use your own strength. Instead of believing in God, your first step should be allowing God. Before you allow yourself, allow God to work on you.”
In the midst of this revelation, Mash Mwana shared that he was promoting a brand-new inspirational song titled “Kata Simu,” featuring Size 8.
