Media personality Willis Raburu has opened up about the enduring pain of losing his daughter Adana, sharing how certain everyday moments and songs continue to evoke powerful memories.
Speaking during an interview on Monday night, April 6, 2026, with Oga Obinna, Raburu said grief has no timeline or rules.
Raburu went on to reveal that, for him, one song in particular, Beyoncé’s “Brown Skin Girl”, brings back vivid memories.
“Grief never goes away and it does not have protocols; it is in memories, it is in pictures, it is in just moments that pop in, it is in songs,” Raburu said.
“Like for me, there is a song, Brown Skin Girl I used to sing all the time, I used to imagine with my dark skin, I am definitely going to have a brown-skinned girl, so I used to play that song every day,
So every time I hear that song, it takes me back.”
The former TV host also spoke about how routine places became emotionally challenging.
“For a long time, also, because I was in the morgue, I could not go to the supermarket, the fridge area, then going back to Nairobi hospital was a bit of a challenge for me,” he shared.
Despite the deep pain, Raburu said therapy has helped him cope.
“But with therapy, it gets a little bit litter, but it never goes away,” he added.
Emotional moments
The celebrated media personality further revealed that the pain often overwhelmed him, even while he was hosting his popular entertainment show.
“It happens and gets you anytime, anywhere. For me, when I was doing 10/10, I used to park my car, cry, go do the show, I make sure I have shades on, do the show, after the show I would go back to the car and cry, then go home to drink because I was trying to forget.”
The former TV host, in a past interview, narrated how the loss plagued him, and at some point, he almost took his own life because of the grief.
“For me what I learned is that you have underlying, issues that you need to talk about, and you need to seek therapy which I did a lot, one of those darkest moments I (wanted to end my life)and again all the time I thought about my daughter if she on the other side the only way I can see her is to join her, I did go through moments where my therapists had to call the office, that was the time people started checking up on me,” Willis said.
Adana was pronounced dead at birth on December 31, 2019.
